was as hard as steel
either u make, or u brake
i have been both
the exercise was tormenting..

now soft and mellow
found a comfort zone,
that seems endangering
what i once tormentedly built

tonite i feel like crying,
of what i did
or what i didnt do.
even this, i can not comprehend..

for that matter tonite i shall be in tears
weep and drench from thw guilty pleasure
of being blind, deaf, mute and foolish
in the presence of Allah..


minal aidzin wal fa'idzin,
mohon maap lahir dan batin..