a conversation that never took place

..to a (supposedly) great woman
whose curiosity hacked its way to my private life...
so why the hell not it lead to this page?


"hallo.. how you been holdin on?

sorry ya, i dint mean to b rude earlier..
yes, i found it amusing for i
cudnt and still cant figure out your purpose in calling me..

however, here's what i need to say (in your best interest)
in an ideal world, "closure" wud be an understanding between the two parties.
yet this doesnt happen all the time
- i hv been priviledged enuf at sum point to experience such "ideal"
.. but it was just making things harder and longer (4 years)
before i find myself completely independent/detached emotionally and mentally from the man.
so really, closure is more about finding your peace within yourself.

secondly, he never mentioned anything of your particular situation.
.. am with you on the sisterhood thing: i wudnt bother with any attached man.
however, i do not sees that he needed to..
for whatever he and i share, it started casually as friends with no bizarre intentions
- and we intend to keep things that way

as for your concern tho (if i may say)
i believe there's a communication flaw between the two of you.
otherwise i wud not even have to exist is your life, at all.

i am sorry for you, the fact that i can not succumb any further to your grieve.
and whatever about him and i beyond this line,
is bound for me to keep as my private life.


im calling you now, for a number of reasons
first, because i've given you my word

secondly, im calling you on because of him.
you, have known him longer..
what i do not know is how well have you really known him.
- i may or may not be right, for only time will tell.
but i see him as a man of integrity..
or at least that's what he is portraying/trying to be..
in my interactions with him.

thirdly, is because of you.
i dont (have to) know you, but im sure you past relationship
with him was good at some stages -and i have to respect that.
so here's my wish for you:
may your courage (to call and involve me in this circus) turn into strength
in finding your own closure.

i personally dont know what this situation will bring..
you hv created a mini wave of realizations between him and i.
if say by so we can still find our ground of understanding:
that means our closeness is not just thinly vain.
honestly, i didnt expect things to arise this early in such manner.

like i said before, i can understand if there's still some rocky devastations on your behalf.
i also understand he has a great interests in independent women.. which i am sure you are of one.
therefore i hope you wud find your closure and peace.

as for you and i, our conversation ends here and now.

thank you (but no thanks) "