defeat

been fighting a battle
i had not yet involved in,
thus very much commited;
battle of foolishness

torn out of conscience
between the conscious and the sub
amplified in the subliminal forces of islam
i am a fear driven fool

hours towards ramadhan, where the chimes of festive echoes,
i cant recall which angel had came upon me,
oblidging me to condescend out of my own battle.
was lashed by guilt, washed only by my own tears of humility.

i wish for nothing but forgiveness,
not to be spiritually reborn,
not even the subsequent victory out of a defeat,
only forgiveness..

1 syawal 1426 hijriah,

i was meant to go through this day without my family,

i was meant to cry,

i forfeited a battle i had not yet involved in.