a memory in deletion process

she says,
am a natural born lady.
too good of manners to let anyone sees me "that" emotional.

while i still hold this anger within..
which u very well deserve a good slap in the face for

but she says i wudnt settle with that.
she wonders why not satisfy my lows by
having a 'talk' or two..
in finding solution.

i asked her why:

further convo wud turn tings ugly.
we've suffered enough..
ive been having diarrhoea while u and your deep flu.

my anger will turn into subtle poison in my tounge to battered ur psycho/emotional state

and now that am about to climb my way back up..
i wudnt have it at the cost of your losses.

she bedazzled herself from
defending u, a man who deserves not even 1/4 of me..

i told her is alright :)
cuz she just wants me to be happy..
and u made me happiest, while it lasted...

she says im a strong lady
i says im a stupid stupid woman.


. . .

to the men out there:
go back to ur mumha and asks her this, "what does it feel like, being a woman"
hear her.. no, listens to her. and do understands, that is all u are capable of -to listen to her..
for you would NEVER can fully grasp what it really feels like, being a woman.

for dr goodlurve git here is reaching her pension time:
she just wanna be look after by a man. and her devotion to return the favour and made him king would goes without saying.
cuz thats what she knows best..


ps:
after 2 months apart, pit gave me a big sanity hug. eugh.
he let me stuffed my face in his shoulder without too much questions. bless him.