'freedom'

i feel... so
strangely
utterly
at home with
him

i can joke
and feel
and share
and learn
and think, wonder, ponders so freely
-for once..

and not have to be afraid of..
or scaring him off.

i can be alive

i can be myself

suddenly im creating new goals
new dreams
and achievements

im inspired

to be a better person

and just really be:

alive.

is a lot to take for him,
to be patience and understands me and what and how i do
my sporadic mind, my cursifying gifts, my deeds, my craziness
and he is there. he is just.. there, taking it all in.. one by one each day
at the same time pushing me be, that little much more of a better person

ya Allah.. what is this thing (person)?



question: with exam within 24 hours.
is this sensation enuf in realizing me as a better person?

or just loneliness?