i made a new friend
he and i, shares the same curious vibe
yes, all about him and i has been so lively and vibrant

plus all the "hiccup" of is there/is there no real attraction
heightens excitement
unfortunately all are done in such a
warm, caring and delicate manner

of which, feeds into my esteem.
it all seem so, selfless.

...

it is unfortunate, since -im supposed to let go of
my lonely impulsive desires
(that lately seem to devaluates my own worth)

am bound to break any of my attachments towards
men.
and face my loneliness in aloneness. ARGH!

git here just wants to be embraced, loved and understood

i think pit should understands me best at this point
i feel embraced by my new friend
and as for love, i have given up.
il let Allah shows me what love between man and woman is about
(when sees how life is so full of love)

..


"selflessness" has becoming the spring in my foot steps
do i have to kill it now?

xx