four little word

ever since ive discovered a blog, ive written so much in it. simply, about life.
in all of its weight of complications, exploring its refinement of intricacies and
o' boy, each time is an attempt to understand its fairness of delicacy.

the kinda things many people rather not to have to face up front.
the things i understands from myself as being a curse: always seeing grey
only because i "happens" to see things in its both black and white

hmm, when your every senses has been corrupted in such way since such a young age
is rather.. inescapable.. but to run around the globe searching the whites,
well.. render it if i must, in white.

isnt it why i am here? learn to draw, render and make something?
ironically, this is the land of the grey where the sun hardly shines
and loneliness is so tempting to turn all things into black.

so, lets talk about the very subject i have avoided most: HATE



(Allah give me strength.. allow me to know where to begin. 22.02)