for the thousandths of times. mother is right. i got my massage done anyway. a good hour of detensified pressures and stretches. damn she was perfect! all the knots and misguided muscles are back where it shud be, leaving my back feeling softer and more relax. but thats how i feel today: a softie. my back is tenderized, means i cant do my usual upper body twist and turn without a sprung. and yes, mother has had reminded me about this before.

i just feel like lying in bed.. to rest. damn i need my rest. sadly the stress is only starting. where expectation and presentation are meant to meet. 4 more subjects to go to be scrutinized.. bedazzling me from making any post exam plans at all:
- another back massage and rest is a must.
- regaining controll over my diet is a must (ive lost my appetite more and more).
- regulating gym hours, whenever my back condition stabilises to normal. is a must too.
- i need, yes, need, to cater to my long neglected wardrobe.
then ah ya, a form of celebration. im trying to get off alcohol tho'. so lets see what idea is left:
- regaining my social life.
- or simple date with myself to the country side? ive always wanted to go to that 4acre of labyrinth park by a famous architect. i wud love to drive of course. a highlight wud be to go back on a saddle. then id settle the night on a b&b for one (or two, max).. a big mug of hot chocolate at night, a self help book on being creative; so i can wake up in the morning to the smell of freshly baked bread.. and a devine frech cuisine for lunch before i head back to london town.

how perfect wud it be...

wifey, i wish u r here. i hadnt feel this comfortable with anyone else/new for quite some time. so damn, yes id take u on for a ride... what we had is not much yet...

for now im gonna sulk back to bed with my history book..