i shut my parents off

(bad girl)

i said i dun wanna hear tazmania, brazil, greece, turkey, mexico,

uzbekistan, latvia, iran, iraq..

i said i dun wanna hear credit card numbers and processing

i said i dun wanna hear jamu, jamu, jamu,

worse, crushing a bucket of ginger to soak my back.

i said i need me for me.

'so, there's nuthing we can do'

nada.

i need to do my work with a room full of people

without demand or judging me in any form or weight.

so when i hv to see the judges of my work,

i can face them.

im already too low on resources.

noone has filled me in. so now, i ask of noone.

i want to be utterly alone.

shutting down vessels, part 2