missing myself
that drive
the ambitions
those adrenalines
that kills me -eventually!
...
instead im here
waiting passively
for time
time to heal
time for love
time to comprehend
time to get that next prescriptions
time for the next blood test
time for the next cardiogram
time for the cardioversion
time for the operation
time to heal
time to comprehend
and maybe, time for love
...
oh boy,
im just missing myself

(dancing freely to old jazz funky tunes drinking my champagne)