he says (she says)

(he 1)

he says "yes and no" when asked if
shifting expectations is necessary on
his attention during his work-trance period..

he did say he is doing this for "us".
the bonding of that very subject seemed to be
diminishing by the day, to me.

he then says, "this situation is not proper"
"what's new" she says, "is a question of WANT! Yet AGAIN!!"
and i wonder how low should one sacrifice one's expectations in the name of love?


(he 2)

he says he "misses tenderness and caress"
he whom has been nothing but good to me.
so good, that i don't wanna have to spell rejection out of my mouth..


(he 3)

he says he will be in town tomorrow.. and possibly the weekend after.
fact is: when you've battered yourself to lovingly let go of someone,
you are only allowed a book of one way "thankful" tokens for ANY future encounters which can only happens on the probability of chances set by the Universe Of Truth.. whereby every token is to be given away so selflessly with suppressed possibility of future regrets. Such doing can only be perform due to faith thus its hopelessness is nonetheless all about fate. Or so, that is just about all the dignity that is left of you. My heart remained still.....


(he 4)

he asked if im still busy "sleeping"
...
i told him i sleep well and far off from where he sleeps




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