womanhood: two times four little words

when there's much reason to hate
she finds herself imbecilely disabled
stupid really.
how fragile..
vulnerable
so they say.

when there's much reason to be content
she strives her ways to love
outrageous..
scary, yes
vulnerable
so they make her believe.

when there's a window of opportunity opens
she tends to hinder
fool!
or cautious?
spoilt? perhaps
so she wonders and ponders:

in the heartbreak acceptance of her inability to hate
wouldn't that comes with the same consequence for.. say, love?
..
how can anyone love anyone/anything fully
when they're too afraid to hate?
or
has not her head.. ppft again, too cocky in its Just'ification -really,
in keeping the heart from its freedom to feel?

if say "yes" to either the equations above..
then, what should be stopping her?

how much more has she got to loose, truly?


woman!! do let, the fire lit..
just numb those nerves
and let the mysteries of life unravels..

now, what you all gotta say to that?



Ya Allah, lay Your merciful blessing
of strength and courage in carrying out
what You intended me to do..
for i am weak.